haptalaon | (no subject)

one thing about being away from the desk for a while is it resets your habits and relationships to your habits and you see them afresh from the outside, & this prompted me to ask 'when I feel this little stab of distress that prompts me to check reddit, where is that distress coming from? What is distressing me?'

& I realised that for me at least, it's the context of being on a computer in and of itself which produces the stress, even if nothing especially bad is happening. So, yeah.

I hate that all these neat things like communicating with friends, reading blogs from people in countries I will never visit, pirating out-of-print books, accessing neat organisational tools and listening to Nigerian disco and taqwacore come with a side-order of 'being on the computer' :/