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I don't have the internet at home; a mixed blessing, and one ive chosen - one which has vastly improved my quality of life.
An example of the mixed blessing is - im trying to assemble an image bank for some of my spiritual writing, because good photos and great art say far more than words when you're talking about the magic of the landscape. Really, what I need is a good afternoon of googling. And im missing my tumblrs of spiritual art, these wonderfully curated sets of visionary and strange photos and paintings. The miss rate is high, but I love the set I have saved on my phone.
Because I can't do this, I am painting my own instead.
I think this is the whole thing in a nutshell. This is the chance that internet loss is supposed to provoke; I could do this online, and it would be faster (although also very, very time consuming, to somehow sift through and find the right things). Instead, I'm painting, and for my landscape shots, I'm planning to fix my camera and go and try and actually take the photographs so that I can use ones which directly say "this. This thing here."
A mixed blessing. In my Fencraft pamphlet on Disconnection, I wrote the phrase "rejecting the straight way for the curious" - as the broader religious teaching thst rejecting the web was supposed to teach. One could also rephrase it as the straight way for the tedious, because there is an advantage of course in heading straight at what you want to find. Instead, I try and sit with my frustration and impatience and have gratitude for this space ive made on my life, where I have to go out into the world and make photographs and paintings instead of sitting at a screen engaging with their simulacra; and I suppose I find that it is good.
An example of the mixed blessing is - im trying to assemble an image bank for some of my spiritual writing, because good photos and great art say far more than words when you're talking about the magic of the landscape. Really, what I need is a good afternoon of googling. And im missing my tumblrs of spiritual art, these wonderfully curated sets of visionary and strange photos and paintings. The miss rate is high, but I love the set I have saved on my phone.
Because I can't do this, I am painting my own instead.
I think this is the whole thing in a nutshell. This is the chance that internet loss is supposed to provoke; I could do this online, and it would be faster (although also very, very time consuming, to somehow sift through and find the right things). Instead, I'm painting, and for my landscape shots, I'm planning to fix my camera and go and try and actually take the photographs so that I can use ones which directly say "this. This thing here."
A mixed blessing. In my Fencraft pamphlet on Disconnection, I wrote the phrase "rejecting the straight way for the curious" - as the broader religious teaching thst rejecting the web was supposed to teach. One could also rephrase it as the straight way for the tedious, because there is an advantage of course in heading straight at what you want to find. Instead, I try and sit with my frustration and impatience and have gratitude for this space ive made on my life, where I have to go out into the world and make photographs and paintings instead of sitting at a screen engaging with their simulacra; and I suppose I find that it is good.