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All I want for Yuletide is...a traditional witchcraft blogger whose writing style doesn't raise my pulse and my stress level as if I were in a small house with someone who was very, very angry, and trying to make myself smaller so they don't take it out on me.
I can't quite put my finger on what it is; and I know I am myself very vulnerable to anything which triggers this "walking on eggshells" sensation, perhaps oversensitive. Still, it's writers in my own tradition who seem to have a particular problem with...writing in a way which conveys defensiveness and rage, even when the topic is something neutral like growing plants or reading books.
It's possible that tradcraft is especially attractive to people who are a touch more unstable, and therefore a bit more prone to anger and distress and taking it out on strangers and writing as if they're ready to lash out at any moment. We're not a good fit for sitting quietly at a Church of England service, or dipping crystals in purest Goddess water in the name of love and light. Religions and movements attract people best fitted for them; and perhaps revering the darkest of dark gods, and the stellar in the undergrowth, and loving the old witchlore where the witch is rage and delight is particularly attractive to people who are a certain kind of hurt, and a certain kind of difficult as a result. And that comes through in our writing.
I just want new ritual tips and idea and lore to copy down into my grimoire and new ways of thinking about the world and its wyrd, and to not feel afraid when doing so.
(And I don't mean "afraid" in the cool cthonic sense, of witches being a bit scary; more like the school bully, violent and petty)
I can't quite put my finger on what it is; and I know I am myself very vulnerable to anything which triggers this "walking on eggshells" sensation, perhaps oversensitive. Still, it's writers in my own tradition who seem to have a particular problem with...writing in a way which conveys defensiveness and rage, even when the topic is something neutral like growing plants or reading books.
It's possible that tradcraft is especially attractive to people who are a touch more unstable, and therefore a bit more prone to anger and distress and taking it out on strangers and writing as if they're ready to lash out at any moment. We're not a good fit for sitting quietly at a Church of England service, or dipping crystals in purest Goddess water in the name of love and light. Religions and movements attract people best fitted for them; and perhaps revering the darkest of dark gods, and the stellar in the undergrowth, and loving the old witchlore where the witch is rage and delight is particularly attractive to people who are a certain kind of hurt, and a certain kind of difficult as a result. And that comes through in our writing.
I just want new ritual tips and idea and lore to copy down into my grimoire and new ways of thinking about the world and its wyrd, and to not feel afraid when doing so.
(And I don't mean "afraid" in the cool cthonic sense, of witches being a bit scary; more like the school bully, violent and petty)
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But different strokes for different folks. Everyone has their own way and path.
I always enjoy reading your thoughts on these matters, thank you for sharing.
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I have these two sides--starlight-ecstatic-goddess-love, which I don't look down on at all, and backbone-drenched-swamp-power, but I prefer the starlight-ecstatic because it makes me happy. I probably would need to foster the other side to be a stronger person, but I avoid it, because I don't want to fill my sacred spaces with swamp water, even if it means I'd be better at witchin'. I know. I should. But I don't want to. I'd rather be the fluffiest of bunnies.
I love reading your blog, by the way. You have the best pagan blog I have found.
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It's like, I wanna learn the thing, without also getting the vibe of seething judgement rolling off of the words. So I'm just careful who I learn from and of course, take the constructive out of the critical.