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Sometimes, I encounter someone doing something similar to what I'm doing, and it's awesome & educational & inspiring. Sometimes, I encounter someone doing something similar, and I feel threatened, diminished, envious or competitive. I'd like to know more about those emotions, like...its it something in the way the author writes? Is it the specific topic? Is it the mood I'm in? I'd like to have more of the first one and less of rhe second, where possible.

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I long to be the sort of person whose spirituality fills them like an Aura, so that when others are around me they can sense my calm, my conviction, the strength of my values, and the way that all radiates outwards into creating a life which is grounded, guidance which is wise, a presence which is still, and so on. Then I remember I'm disabled and, additionally, a full and complete human being who is cranky, flawed, and those are good things; and this vision of A Spiritual Person is more like, successful advertising. The Pope and the Dalai Lama crap like the rest of us. And I probably would radiate faith and presence if my existence was fully stage-managed.

Still. it's the sort of thing I can still work towards. Specifically, and in a more down to earth way, making more reminders to check in with myself throughout the day and ask "is this in tune with my values?". Because it frequently isn't, and that's something I can work on.