I'm working on a series of profiles for popcultural figures I work with. I think the genesis for this is -
I'm writing a book about How To Pagan. I don't know if it has any value to others, but I enjoyed writing it, and I enjoy
using it to remind me of important precepts or ideas. In the summoning chapter, writing about safe summoning - it occured to me that truly horrifying beings do not exist in real world mythologies.
Me and my growlfriend made a list of things you
really did not want in your living room - and the list was Slenderman, Cthulhu & the Lovecraft mythos, the Daedra from the
Elder Scrolls games, the Harbingers from the
Atmosfear series, the Nothing from
The Neverending Story etc etc etc.
Real world mythologies have evil powers, but they tend to be contained. The Norse mythos has Loki (who is chained to a rock) and the Fenris wolf (who will be killed by Víðarr). The Egyptians have Set (defeated by Horus), and Apophis (defeated each night by Ra). Christianity has the devil, but his minons can be banished through the power of Jesus, and ultimately his armies are defeated by St Michael in the the last days.
And so on: there's something about human nature here, needing representations of horror but also needing them to be containable. We invent werewolves, then we invent silver bullet legends. We invent vampires, and then we invent all manner of kryptonites to destroy them, even silly things like they have to untie knots and count poppy seeds. Anything humanity has ever literally believed to be real - we've also believed in a way to stop them.
(There's an incredible article
in an old Fortean Times called "Killing Slenderman". The author has studied Slenderman in detail, as a potential internet tulpa/spirit brought into reality by our collective belief, and so this article is about people who have tried to write
weaknesses into the Slenderman mythos, as a deliberate act of self defence. In other words - at the moment people started believing Slenderman could be
real, they started looking very seriously for ways of containing him. Albeit in a very meta way, as all Slendy related things are).
I think this is the appeal of the pop-cultural powers I'm drawn to. They provide a thing I can't find in non-imagined pantheons: a sense of horror, of cosmic horror, of total insignificance. That's a sensation I want to work with and understand, and it's core to my understanding of the Landweird. I think it's a trauma thing, as a sense of constant and unending hollow terror is a pretty average day for me; how else could I percieve the divine except with awe and terror? Powers who embody the ugly extremes of human experience - not beatific love but obsession, not a personified forest but primal horror - the extremes where I live.
And then generally, a relationship pattern of loving things that might harm me, or that do harm me, and that have a lot of power over me - again, my mortal patterns of being drawn to people who are bad for me, inevitably repeats itself in a draw to
gods who are bad for me. But maybe it's a fuller way to indulge the abus-ee's ultimate fantasy of finding abusers who can love them, you know? The old "he's good on the inside and only I can change him", and with a pop-cultural deity you almost certainly
can have that experience, you can dance near to the flame and fall over the edge - but then be caught.