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7 March 2019 13:19![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
haptalaon Part of the problem with my faith being so experiential is that I feel shut off from it in times of crisis. It's linked to a selection of altered states, states I can sometimes enter by looking at rhe landscape in the right way -it feels like the opposite of dissociation, a huge too-much-ness, I get giddy looking at the land and sky.
I can't get there when I'm depressed or too shut in.
And my craft starts with thst radical presence, which includes a sort of daily self care and focus on the simple, practical tasks of life. This is because a religious imperative to do it helps me do it more often. But when I'm deep in despair, of course, none of it gets done. Although my religion is already designed around my health needs, perhaps I need to develop a particular track for when one feels ugly, down, dirty, and too overwhelmed to anything -something responding to that specific mood.
(Like, I have a lot of simple cup of tea/sit on the porch rites which are already optimised for how sad and dysfunctional I am. But I need something when even thst ia too much, simple acts of connection)
I can't get there when I'm depressed or too shut in.
And my craft starts with thst radical presence, which includes a sort of daily self care and focus on the simple, practical tasks of life. This is because a religious imperative to do it helps me do it more often. But when I'm deep in despair, of course, none of it gets done. Although my religion is already designed around my health needs, perhaps I need to develop a particular track for when one feels ugly, down, dirty, and too overwhelmed to anything -something responding to that specific mood.
(Like, I have a lot of simple cup of tea/sit on the porch rites which are already optimised for how sad and dysfunctional I am. But I need something when even thst ia too much, simple acts of connection)
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Date: 7 March 2019 13:43 (UTC)